To blog or not to blog...

We have had a tough couple of weeks in our house.  I have debated over and over whether or not to share on the blog.  I initially was not going to, but then I  don't want to be one of those people that only post the bragging parts of life.  I do like to share about my son and family, which is why I decided to post, to honor my second baby.  

For those of you who didn't know we found out we were pregnant on Labor Day weekend.  I had a house full of Oklahoma friends and I somehow kept it a secret...from everyone including Niles.  I told him after everyone had left so we could have our own celebration.  We told our families about a month ago when I went to visit Illinois.  Carter got off the plane in this...

My mom was hilarious bc it took her forever to see it.  We hadn't even left the airport before she sent a pic to my dad and sis.  Niles parents got to see him in it over skype.  Johnny was the first to spot the importance.

We were very excited to add another baby to our family.  We went to get our first Ultrasound two Thursdays ago and didn't get good news.  The baby's heart had stopped beating they think somewhere around 8 or 9 weeks.  We realize that this is nature's way of saying that baby wasn't ready and it is better this way, but it doesn't make the news any less sad or less heartbreaking.  My body was still doing everything it was suppose to be doing, which is I guess the good news.  I had a D and C last Monday.  Everything went fine and I am feeling much better.

We feel extremely loved by all the help we have be given or offered in the last week.   I have to give a BIG thank you to Niles.  He took care of both Carter and I which isn't easy, especially when you are grieving along with all that work.  Thank you to my mom for listening to me cry and just letting me do it. Thank you to the Brummer's for all the help with Carter, I didn't realize that I would literally be in the hospital all day and without them my son had no where to go!  Thank you to Terry and GG for cleaning my house and watching Carter so Niles and I could get away.  Thank you to all of our family and friends for the calls, messages, cards, flower attempts ( :)  ), we needed all of those thoughts.  We are extremely blessed  and are going to spend our time enjoying those blessings.